Back at it Again

3rd day of school and I want to die. I see people who hate me everyday, but the one who hurts me the most is in my chemistry class. He used to such a good friend to me until my ex started talking crap about me and now he feels like I used him. I never used him! but i did make him feel that way. Every morning I see him in class it just kills me inside. I want to talk to him and apologize, but I can't get close to him or even talk to him. I hope I can get his attention just one last time, but I don't know when that is going to be happening.

Wrestling

I just started wrestling this season and its not like my usual fighting experience, but I'm getting the hang of it; however, its not just the sport that I'm learning about. Wrestling taught me to gain confidence within myself. Fighting a match without confidence, will get you dragged around and beaten up by the opponent. When gaining confidence, I panic less and try to find a way out of the situation I'm in. With each practice, I'm getting better as a wrestler and as a better person.

Mid Terms

I got 5 A's and 2 B's.. i need to raise the 2 B's before the final semester. my parents expect A's.... this is getting really stressful.

Grade Stressing

school is so stressful!!! my parents expect As and i'm not good at that. i'm doing my homework. what more can i do?

Mornings

Every morning, i have to wake up at 6am, and get ready to go to the bus, but every night i stay up to 12am. the main reason is cause i can't sleep. when i want to sleep i can't, but if i don't want to sleep, i start drifting and about a couple minutes later I'm sleeping. What is this? Sleep is important and it had to be a problem in my life.

Clubs

I never have time to do clubs because of soccer. Well today i have a game at 5 and i can do the Martial Arts Club! I'm so excited! Plus my last soccer game is this Thursday. Once that's done i'm free to do different clubs/events until winter sports starts. I'm going to tryout for wrestling. I'm not sure how its going to work out after that. I guess i have to wait and see!

Video Class

I'm using a new video program called Adobe Premiere Pro. This is like Final Cut Pro but for Windows. I'm really confused on how it works cause its like it doesn't want to select the video. It reminds me when nothing goes my way. Its like we have different opinions on things and its trying to show me it in a different perspective.