Back at it Again

3rd day of school and I want to die. I see people who hate me everyday, but the one who hurts me the most is in my chemistry class. He used to such a good friend to me until my ex started talking crap about me and now he feels like I used him. I never used him! but i did make him feel that way. Every morning I see him in class it just kills me inside. I want to talk to him and apologize, but I can't get close to him or even talk to him. I hope I can get his attention just one last time, but I don't know when that is going to be happening.